Is what my doctor told me yesterday. Or to be exact, no more drinking alcohol, no coffee, no grilled meat, no red meat. My esophagus illness has entered 3rd phase (and the reason is I haven't treated it earlier and I also ate a lot of junk food and drunk too much coffee), which is a pre-cancer phase (that's what Herr Doktor told me, maybe to scare me off from eating junk-food, maybe because it might be truth), and it's not a question wheter I'll get esophagus cancer or not, but it's just a question of WHEN I'll get it, if I continue with my current lifestyle.

And yup, it worked. I finally decided to introduce some discipline in my life. I'll have to watch what I eat and drink from now on, in order to keep my gastric acid from further eating my esophagus from inside out. And no more alcohol could also mean no more funny journals. As if I had written any funny journals lately anyway.

But, yes, some things will have to change and I still don't know how I will adopt to those changes. What will I drink when I go out at night? No alcohol means no beer. No coffee neither. So I'm left with tea and juices. And I can't drink juices because they all contain citric acid which also makes my gastric acid go up and have a big bite of my esophagus. So I'm going to become a total tea-person now. Maybe I should move to England. Or at least get me an umbrella and a monocle.

And no more coffee means I won't be jittery and paranoid anymore. Which is strange. I spent half of my life being jittery and paranoid. I'll probably turn into a buddhist monk now, all being in peace with myself and shit. I'll have to learn few buddhist sayings so I can annoy people around me whenever they are in some critical situation, desperately searching for some solution. Heck, I even started going to gym and exercising. Now that's what no one expected to happen, especially myself. What I'm now afraid of is that all of this won't turn me into some boring look-at-me-I'm-an-adult twat.

So, did anybody out there had any similar problems, being 29, not wanting to grow up, and how did you overcome it?